Imagine spending an hour rocking, singing, feeding, and cuddling your baby to help them fall asleep and when you finally get to relax and hopefully sleep yourself you get to do it all over again...with baby number two.
Now, throw 2 days of non stop appointments, a baby who wakes up 6 times each night, doesn't nap, and you will be the most tired person on this planet.
This was me this last weekend, I hit a level of exhaustion I've never experienced before. I cried because I was so tired, because if I had to get up one more time that night I wasn't going to wake up on time the next morning. I cried because Daniel doesn't get up with the twins at night. I cried because I was so tired I couldn't sleep.
Then I cried because in my mind I could picture Hannah's adorable head shake and Hudson's one toothed smile, and I was happy. I'm happy because I get to be their mom. I'm happy because they are healthy, they are happy, and they love me.
BUT
Twins are HARD.
This is the hardest thing I've ever done, and I've been through a lot. A lot.
The twins are nearly 9 months old and they're getting easier and harder at the same time.
Easier because I can leave them in a room with toys and they'll play by themselves for a while.
Easier because they can hold their own bottles and feed themselves simple foods.
Easier because they smile at me every single morning.
Harder because they're teething and just want to be held.
Harder because they're starting to become mobile and are getting into more and more nonsense.
Harder because they don't like each other right now - they don't like to be touched by their sibling.
Hudson is a needy, needy baby. He isn't handling teething well and just wants his mom to hold him, not dad, just mom. Thankfully one tooth popped through, we're just waiting for the second one to push through. Hudson started getting up on his hands and knees, I know he'll be crawling soon. Hudson is super grabby, if he sees something he wants, he'll figure out how to get it (even if it is moms dinner). Hudson is a total ham, he has the cutest little smile that will melt your heart. He "talks" a lot and I love it.
Hannah is an independent babe, but she only wants to stand up so she's constantly climbing all over me. She's also decided she hates wearing a diaper and clothes and its SO hard to get her changed and dressed once she's naked. She's so close to crawling, she does this weird scoot thing but I know she'll be walking as soon as she figures out how to crawl. She also likes to eat paper, if she sees anything paper related she will eat it. Bleh. Bath time is her favorite, she's my little fish and would stay in the bath all day if I let her.
This mama doesn't get ready 90% of the time, If I have make up and real clothes on (aka not sweats) it means I'm meeting a client that day. (Thankfully my client interactions are becoming more and more common so its forcing me to get ready earlier than 5 PM and almost every day).
I rarely drink hot coffee, if it is hot its been microwaved once or twice.
I don't eat often, I just get too busy and tend to forget.
My house will be totally spotless one day, and by the end of the week it looks like a tornado hit it.
I get mad at my husband for not helping me as much as I want him to.
My meetings and appointments are saving my sanity.
No matter how hard they get, or how tired I am, I am truly grateful that I get to be their mom, why they chose me? Who knows. I'm a bit crazy.
To end, here's some cute pics my sister took for me:
