Well friends, I have reached the 3rd trimester and at this point I can honestly say...I cannot wait to be done! I've said this before but I'm going to say it again...pregnancy is hard and at this point I have officially turned into a big hormonal pregnant bitch.
I have yelled at Daniel for basically everything, his fault or not. Thankfully I married someone with a really good sense of humor and he laughs off most of what I yell at him for, which can drive me crazy at times, but it keeps us from fighting.
I have decided I really dislike my job for really no specific reason at all other than I hate waking up at 5:45 AM, working an 8 hour shift Monday-Friday and having to do it week after week.
and I REALLY just want a bottle of wine, not a glass...a whole entire bottle. (Don't worry, I'll wait until after I pop these 2 babies out to devour any sort of alcoholic beverage).
On top of the being angry at everything in this world right now, I'm to that point that I also cry about everything. I bawled at the end of Cool Runnings when they walk their sled to the finish line, I cried when I realized my idea for my nursery won't work because cribs are a lot bigger than I thought.
I have cried thinking about the cost of raising twins.
I have cried several times because this pregnancy is almost over, and because its also taking too long.
I cry because I will probably have a c-section and I don't want one.
I cry from the pain in my back, from the acid reflux that doesn't allow me to sleep, and because I am so beyond terrified to be a mom.
I am probably the worst person to talk to about pregnancy, I will scare you out of ever wanting a child naturally. I will never be pregnant again, I have the hardest time with it. No complications with my pregnancies, just with my mental state of mind.
There are a few positives I will end with;
We have cribs for our nursery, a dresser is coming this next week and decorations to follow!
My baby shower is in a couple of weeks, I am excited to see all my friends and family for that!
I only have 10 weeks (at most) left of this pregnancy! 10 weeks you guys...10 weeks! Thats crazy!
All of my ultrasounds have turned out great, baby boy is growing at a normal rate, and his sister is just a little bit behind (about a week), but they are both looking so great and that makes their momma (and dad) super happy! Lets just hope these two loves grow lots of hair before they get here!
and lastly, we will be announcing the twins names on my next post (if you haven't already caught my accidental slips here and there), along with a tour of the nursery. So keep watching for updates :D
